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The start of my family half sleeve. This is of me hugging my sister’s head. I LOVE her!
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well that’s totally gorgeous
(Source: unscrewthe-stars, via 1stpalmettoauxiliary)
Salvation is from our side a choice, from the divine side it is a seizing upon, an apprehending, a
conquest by the Most High God. Our “accepting” and “willing” are reactions rather than actions. The right of determination must always remain with God.
conquest by the Most High God. Our “accepting” and “willing” are reactions rather than actions. The right of determination must always remain with God.
— AW Tozer
Posted October 2, 2011 at 12:29am
I’m just not ok. I’m not perfect. I’m broke….I mean really broke. Today, I started working on my resume because I need a second job. I feel like I am a prisoner to money and I hate it. I feel like I didn’t spend a lot of money this month and now I am wondering where all of it went. I want freedom from this!
I am also struggling with the “works” mentality. I know that it’s not true but somewhere in my brain I think that if I do this and this and that for God, He will love me more. I want to stop thinking that. I get so upset over this because I have experienced His love before. He loves me for who I am. Why do I forget this ALL THE TIME?
Sorry for the rant. I just wanted to get this out of my head.
Posted September 28, 2011 at 5:55pm
I have….
too much stuff on my mind right now and it’s stressing me out. Everything from Ocean City Church stuff to relationships and everything in between. What is OCC going to look like in 6 months? Will we be growing out of the space we have now? Will she forgive me? Will we be friends again? Am I going to be a good leader? Will I be in a relationship in 6 months? What will I do if my car breaks down? Why can’t I just relax? When will it be my turn? With this work schedule, am I going to have enough for bills and rent? Blah blah blah blah….and the list goes on.
Sometimes, I just want to get away from everything. Not tell anyone and leave. Buy a plane ticket and go to California, Hawaii, or wherever etc. Sometimes, I want to move to a different city where no one knows me and start all over. Does anyone else feel like this?
It’s not that I don’t feel loved or important by my friends and family…because I do. I love my family and friends here. I am so blessed to have the people that I have in my life. It’s just…I don’t know…Sometime I want everything to go away.
I guess this is all a part of growing up. Enough ranting for tonight. I have to get to sleep because I have to be at CFA at 5:45am. It’s my pleasure! Goodnight everyone.
-lovehopefaith-
Gerald
Posted September 7, 2011 at 11:11pm
